Dear Son,
I am writing my first letter to you today. You were born in the early hours of the morning of the 30th of August 2014. Mom wanted you to be born on the 28th. She wanted you to be born under the nakshatra of Kartika. Kartika was the nakshatram of your grandmother. Ever since she passed away into another life, your mother was always depressed. She lived in loneliness. After a year of living in loneliness, we came to know that you were on your wan to enter this world. Somewhere within our heart we felt you were amma (your grandmother) reborn. But Kartika came and went away, then came Rohini, Lord Krishna's nakshatra. Finally under the magayira nakshatram, you were born at 01.04 AM.
The first time I saw you, I had completely blanked out. I didn't know how to react. There you were looking like an alien, with an elongated head and slanted eyes. You really looked like you were from another world. The sight of you for the first time took a while to sink in and then I realised I was a father. It was not you who were born that day. I was born as a father that day.
I then took you in my arms. I thought you would look into my eyes knowingly and smile, as they show in films, but you just yawned and went to sleep. The nurse took you away and packed you up like a cocoon. I sat outside wondering what that moment had done to me. That one moment when you were in my arms, my life had changed completely. I made a promise to myself, as a father, I would always strive to show you the right way, give you the right habits, scold when you do wrong, hug when you are sad, laugh when you laugh. I made a promise, I shall always be there for you, if not in person, then through these thoughts that I am putting down here.
One thing I have realised is that ideals, ideas, philosophy, friends, relationships... actually the entire world is changing rapidly... So what I might write earlier as right and wrong might be very contradictory later in life. The meaning of right and wrong are always relative and dependant on the situation the action is taken.. So please never judge. because errors are always judgmental errors...
Read on...
Love,
Achchan...